Love Where is it and how to get it

In today's world I find myself looking for love and how to obtain it. I sometimes think I will be alone for the rest of my life some how. I know that this is just me being overly drama acting. But in my case I was in love with a guy for 11 years and now he's gone for good. I then Got in to The Mormon Church and in way's I have changed
a lot . I however never seen this coming but I now have a deeper respect for my self and others ,

I never understood what I felt as a child growing up of why I was always ran form girls I never understood why some were nice and some was as hateful as sin to me. I always tried to treat others as I wanted to be treated.
My Grandma instilled that in me when I had to live with her for some time when my Father wasn't to have any contact with me for the Abuse that he caused me.

My Mother always told me that she loved me but never really showed me much care . Only times that I felt it was when she wanted me to do something for her. Or Needed something from me. My Brothers and Sisters never cared for me as well. I was always wondering WHY was I put in to this family. and I could never find out why. But it wasn't until my Dad was going out of this world to tell me that he loved me. As long as I can think
He NEVER told me that he loved me. I however was told on so many times I was a waste of Flesh by him and my Brothers and Sisters , I went in to a fast food place in Lexington Kentucky and seen a sign of God holding a Child that said God Don't Make Junk. I was happy to see that on the wall. I wish that I could have got a copy of that to put on my own wall.

I am a simple minded person. Or so I thought . I have a Friend that tell's me I am not a simple man. I am a complex person and Different as that. I was amazed by that to hear Him tell me this. BUT OH WELL is what I always say.

If you know of where and how to find True Love Please Let Me Know.....