My Person Feeling

In the world today it is more than a problem to me when we let so called Church Borthers and Sisters cut us down and try and make us feel less than our selfs I have had this done more than I would like.

In the last few weeks I haven't been able to do much for my self. Due to my Health Issues . I have saw people for who they really are. And heard how they have spoke to me. And I thought Mormons would Never down grade any one well I was so wrong.

I have been spoke to out of turn and told to me I am not worthy of much in the True Church. Well I will say this to them I forgive you and still love you.

I am a person of small means but will enough love and compassion to serve any where. I do see some callings in the True Church LARGE and do see some callings as SMALL. I may be poor and a LDS HOMOSEXAL But I still will serve even from my bed and wheelchair.

So I ask you to do the right thing and LET ME SERVE AS GOD WOULD HAVE LET THE BLIND SERVE.

Thoughts on Being a L D S and a Gay Man

When I Joined the L D S Church I knew I was Gay and that I felt  the Church would change me in way's , Is what I thought and that it would work. Well I know now that hasn't happened for me. I now can say that being
Gay is I feel that even thou the Bible states what it does, Well I sorta feel and think that We MUST keep in mind
that the Bible was written by men with mortal hearts and mortal minds as well as feeling all to their own. I know I might get some flack for saying that. Well I do hope you see this from my point of view.

I just think that GOD MADE ME JUST AS HE WANTED ME TO BE. You should see it that way as well.
God don't make mistakes in what he sends here to earth and that should never be an Issue for The Lawmakers and People in Law Making Proses as a whole that we should Love all people no matter what they look like and stand for.

I just hope that LOVE is all we need to be free. also the love of our Heavenly Father as well.

TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY

I have always wanted to find something to make myself happy. I have yet to this day find what it is. But in small way's I have made a lot of changes to my life and how to have and make my self happy. I am looking for the one love of my life now day's. I also know that I have some people that I am lusting after and I will never have. And that I also find myself holding on to the thought of having love for myself. Sorta makes me happy. 

I someday hope that I can walk down the isle and marry the love of my life . I know and can only hope that can happen. and I also find myself wishing that all my fellow Gay Bi and whatever else can get happy by marrying the loves of our lives . I know someday we may have that right. WE CAN ONLY HOPE YOU KNOW!!!

I sit and think that if some one would see it from our side of things. We can keep things in a better manor of progression and that I feel like so many people before me can have the same rights as every one else.

I hope as we get closer to the Next President Election we can finely move forward to the best place in our world. I hope that this is the same happiness that your looking for. I am open in all things I say and do.

GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHO OR WHAT YOU ARE AND FEEL LIKE AS WELL.

ALSO GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I ,  MAY GOD BLESS ALL THE READS MY BLOG .

Meanings of Matters

I have of ten wondered why people are the way that they are. For some unseen reason people in my town say that they are a God Fearing and Church Going. Well I heard a guy claimed to be a Church Member and was using Cruse words like they was going out of style. I just don't get people. And I keep Praying for them to have a change of heart. And I get nothing. But God Himself would Cry if he was in my shoes on this one.

I feel people should Think Before They Speak . This is my thought but Oh well.

I hope all you that read this know's I am a deep loving person and that I find my self looking in a new light and way. I also feel that some has no idea that I feel deeper than any one can.

I guess coming from a unloving home brought me to be this way. Some day I will Blog about my life and my family , You will be amazed about that one..

Love Where is it and how to get it

In today's world I find myself looking for love and how to obtain it. I sometimes think I will be alone for the rest of my life some how. I know that this is just me being overly drama acting. But in my case I was in love with a guy for 11 years and now he's gone for good. I then Got in to The Mormon Church and in way's I have changed
a lot . I however never seen this coming but I now have a deeper respect for my self and others ,

I never understood what I felt as a child growing up of why I was always ran form girls I never understood why some were nice and some was as hateful as sin to me. I always tried to treat others as I wanted to be treated.
My Grandma instilled that in me when I had to live with her for some time when my Father wasn't to have any contact with me for the Abuse that he caused me.

My Mother always told me that she loved me but never really showed me much care . Only times that I felt it was when she wanted me to do something for her. Or Needed something from me. My Brothers and Sisters never cared for me as well. I was always wondering WHY was I put in to this family. and I could never find out why. But it wasn't until my Dad was going out of this world to tell me that he loved me. As long as I can think
He NEVER told me that he loved me. I however was told on so many times I was a waste of Flesh by him and my Brothers and Sisters , I went in to a fast food place in Lexington Kentucky and seen a sign of God holding a Child that said God Don't Make Junk. I was happy to see that on the wall. I wish that I could have got a copy of that to put on my own wall.

I am a simple minded person. Or so I thought . I have a Friend that tell's me I am not a simple man. I am a complex person and Different as that. I was amazed by that to hear Him tell me this. BUT OH WELL is what I always say.

If you know of where and how to find True Love Please Let Me Know.....

A new start in life

I always wanted to start over. And come clean with who and what I was in my life and person as well.
I came out of the Closet a few weeks ago and that Having done that I have had some good comments and support and love, And I have also had the most heated things said to me and that I have also had some turn their back's on me. I now have a deeper respect for my self and others , Also I will never see why people hate a gay man more less a Gay Mormon Man such as myself. But I do feel better for doing what I did.